About thirteen years ago God made me a momma and something happened to my heart. It melted for a sweet little cone head shaped boy born a few weeks early but definitely a fighter. On that day my heart changed and I got a Momma's Heart. One that loves, wipes up messes, uses lots of words for all those teaching moments, and goes to bat for my baby.
Yesterday, was one of the worst days yet in dealing with insurance and getting medicine for Cade. There are so many details about our medical system that would shock those who hardly have to use it and would just confirm and cause the heads of those who are sick or know someone who is sick to nod up and down.
This morning I am camped out in Psalm 25 hurt and seeking guidance, healing, and forgiveness for how I feel about the people on the other end of the phone that I talk to. My prayer is that I can trust God to take care of the details, that the blurriness and redness in Cade's eyes doesn't lead to blindness, that I can begin to understand why the drugs that are sitting at the pharmacy one mile away can't be given to my child because my insurance says they have to come from their specialty pharmacy in California and why that wasn't mentioned last Friday when he should have had the medicine. The words in Psalm 25 say what I need today...that my soul really needs God's help.
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Sarah, I love this about you... that when you feel frustrated, you turn to the bible and God! It the big picture of life, that is the best thing you can do. I'm going to take a few minutes to pray that Cade gets the medicine he needs and soon. Big hugs! Des
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